Hello lovely mental health sufferers.
It has been a long while since I have updated my blog… I never intended to give up altogether as I still want to help many people who are suffering at the hands of such a horrible disease.
The picture attached is my motto for my current situation. ‘Don’t let a bad day make you feel like you have a bad life’ which is something I have to remind myself very often some days. A bad day amongst many good days can counteract and make you completely disregard any ‘good times’ you have recently had. That’s what mental illness does to you. All these feelings of hopelessness, insecurities comes flooding back and causes you to feel you are loosing an everlasting battle. You feel you are completely incapable of coping, and having no control over your life and what it throws at you.
Unfortunately this is the case, you have no control over what life hands you, whether it’s good or bad. You are not being punished, you are at the receiving end of a world that you can’t control for your own gain. What you do have control over, however, is how you choose to handle it, and use it to your advantage. For example, you loose your job, you get dumped, or on a more severe note, you loose someone close to you. You haven’t been chosen, you aren’t being punished for a reason unbeknown to you, these things just happen, and there is no substance to it, you have no control. But you can take back control of your life.
I’m guilty of it, we all are, that overwhelming sense of feeling sorry for yourself, asking the questions ‘why me?’ ‘What did I do to deserve this?’ But if you give into this you’re letting your mental illness defeat you. This is from my own experience, and I refuse to return to a state I once was when I felt no desire to live, or be grateful for what I do have.
I still regularly visit my blog most days, to remind myself I can cope, and keep on fighting, mental illness is a long, and lonely road to eventual happiness and satisfaction, but it is achievable. I found it extremely helpful to talk to people about how I feel, despite feeling like I might appear mad. You can find on my about page my email address, and links to my twitter, Facebook, and instagram profiles, if and whenever you feel you need someone to talk to, I am here.